When you are a creative person, there is often pressure on you to make money out of your talents. Which is awesome. That's the dream, right? "Find something you love doing, then get paid for it"?
That's all fine. But that can become a bit of a monkey on your back. Everything has a commercial expectation on it. Creativity becomes only a function of purpose... 'Nice drawing, but WHAT'S IT FOR?'
In my life I have always created. At times, I have made money from that creativity. At times, I haven't. The funny thing about creative people is that they are often NOT business people. Sure, I can paint a painting, draw a picture, write a joke... but when it comes to marketing that product (especially when that product is myself) I often struggle. I am shy. I am socially awkward. The people who have said, "Oh, your so talented!" start saying, "Oh, why are you still working in a shop? You should be a millionaire artist by now!" *
I think that is why blogging has become such an integral part of my creative process- I am safe here. This is my Creative Space. Everyone is welcome and no-one is scary... most of the time...
I love to create. I love to draw and craft and paint and write and whatever. I wish someone would come along and say, "All that shit you are doing? It's awesome. I am going to help you get paid for it. Or, I am just gonna pay you for it. Just keep doing what you are doing., I'll do the hard bits. Like talking to other humans."
Maybe one day that will happen, but in the mean time, sometimes, it's just nice to make yourself some presents. Just because.
Do you feel pressure to BE something? Maybe a unicorn?
* I am fully aware that the 'people' who pressure me and judge me are pretty much a figment of my own mind and my biggest critic is me. Yep.